She's 85, sane and lives in her home for now. She is exceptionally strong. I'm the eldest daughter and have been staying with her as I've no husband at the moment. She is becoming increasingly more Narc than usual, and has started with the hitting at me. I have the bruises but she is stronger than me. She has a glass of wine on occassion but still uses the same asshole behavior my father did to me growing up. What do I do. Everyone thinks its me. Its not. I am worried for her and myself mainly.
You do not need to stay with her, and you do not need to subject yourself to this treatment. She could really hurt you. And, you don't deserve it.
You don't need to prove anything to anyone, and you don't owe your mother.
If she is still capable of living on her own, let her. If she is unsafe living on her own, and no one has POA, then call APS and let them find a solution.
If you have siblings who are criticizing and think you should take on the job of living with and taking care of your mother full time, tell them you can not do it any more, and let them try if the want. To be clear, it is not your siblings' responsibility any more than it is yours. Your mother is a grown woman, and can mismanage her life as she pleases. If anyone in the family has POA for your mother, then they will have to make decisions to plan for her care, but that does not mean that they must Provide that hands-on care.
What medical workup has been done?
Has a UTI been ruled out?
What does her doctor have to say?
Is there a dementia diagnosis?
How long has this hitting out been diagnosed?
If there is no medical condition present here and no dementia you are free to go. And should do so. Do not return.
I would get out as soon as possible.
Wow. Your poor sister. I was an in-home caregiver for 25 years and I never took an injury. I don't care how old someone is, what their mental status is, or what their psychiatric conditions are. My motto has always been, you lay a hand on me and you'll be sorry you did.
Can you move out? If finances are an issue could you look into low-income senior housing (if you qualify) in your area?
I agree with Peggy Sue, call the cops if she gets physical with you again. It is not OK for her to get drunk and hit you.
It sounds to me like you've probably had a lifetime of gaslighting from your parents and they have both been very convincing that you are the catalyst for the fighting and strife in the family. That is bullsh*t. Read the comments on the thread. Everyone here believes you. Walk away.
Leave her house and let her fend for herself, or the 'everyone' who thinks you're cause of all the discord can come and take care of her. Even if you have to go to a womens' shelter temporarily, go. You are a victim of domestic violence and you need help. Call the Domestic Violence hotline and explain your situation. They will help you get out.