We are having the family get-together tomorrow evening for Christmas. Today I am cooking. The turkey is on. The fruit salad is made. The biggest problem has been trying to get the kitchen to cook things. Mom doesn't really have a grasp on time anymore. She spent over an hour this morning cooking breakfast. I want to cook some things this afternoon and the turkey comes off in an hour. I asked her to please come get her lunch so I can start. So she's doing laundry, instead. Bless her heart, but... sigh. This dinner is not going to happen. (Hmm, my return bar isn't working right now for this message, so I'll continue below)
(Hey, my return bar is working again!) I noticed we're not having any holiday threads this year, so I thought I would start one. I'm certainly looking forward to Sunday evening when I can kick back with a warm cup of coffee and nothing else to do.
What gets me is that its always been this way and I never payed it much mind until she got nastier and nastier with her assualts. I guess to blind side me to what I was doing. I was always trifiling and such. Now I see who really was and its nothging I can do about it. History is that everytime I make something good happen wheter a barbecue, xmas, Easter there has always been interference even sabatoge by my mother. Seems like she naturrally curtails my good intentions and rhythm.
So Jesse yes, you deserve a nice kahlua or even stronger stuff. When all is said and done you kick back, relax and enjoy your Christmas. Dinner is very stressful especially if you are the only one making it happen. Make sure you have some of your homemade candy which sounds awesome and some other treats and play santa to your self.
It just truly hit my mother that Xmas is this Sunday. I think yesterday well last night she had curtains down which she just put up a few months ago worring me crazy. When I left for work she was gone and windows bare. Every christmas she change curtain and change around the living room. So she rearranged last week. Last year she put tree up and threw garland on it. It stayed that way. I could not bring my self to beautify and decorate for a family which has no regard or respect for me or anything I have done for my family. I saw the light last too Christmas's no gifts for me not even a token. I am that person who makes sure I have something for everyone and anyone who stops by for Xmas. YOu know hats and gloves. So to me the intent was a little too strong for me to keep going threw and realizing its the same spirit all my life Ive been fighting and ignoring.
Sorry I keep going on and on about same issue.
Christmas is hard. I mean every day should be a day we show love and appreciation. Its that love that makes us cook, shop and clean and work our arses off to make someone happy..
It also feels good even if its stressul.
Enjoy.
I work these next two weekends but I do plan to have nice dinner with my mother . I have the roast beef, and ribs in, want to get a ham and bake a chiken with stuffing. I have never ever baked a turkey :) my son does an awesome job. But I leave the turkey to the pros. Will probably invite neighbor next door who always check on her and friend couple of blocks away whom I haven seen in a while.
It makes me feel good to cook and have people to eat.
So I feel for you good people outthere who tonight ad tommarrow night and Sunday will be hustleing and bustling to make a happy Christmas for your loved ones.
God Bless, and Merry Christmas