I lost my mom two days ago and this is the hardest thing I have EVER had to go through. Momma had been sick since the first of june, she was 82 had to have an abcessed kidney removed had a feeding tube was cripple from a previous stroke, she was on bypap the last few days, I know she is not hurting or anything now cause I have a strong religious belief of what happens at death. I guess I just need to hear from people who have gone through this to know how to handle all the grief and emotions I feel. I feel guilt for not doing more, anger for not doing enough, missing her so very much. Any help is appreciated.
And like you, I know she was no longer in pain, no longer suffering, but how was I supposed to breathe again... how was I supposed to even move forward...
but we do, and you will.... it takes time, and no two people grieve the same... so take it easy if you can... rest as much as you can... and feel what you need to feel... think about the good times.. laugh about the silly times together, and remember that she has experianced something we haven't.... I miss her still, more as I get older... need her wisdom... but I wouldn't wish her back her, God needed another Angel... just as He needed your mom.... and you are not alone... I am sure many will post.. some here have lost parents and will have things to share with you.... sending you hugs, sending you strength, sending you more hugs...
Give yourself time. You just lost your Mother two days ago. It is too soon to even worry about anything past the immediate day. Just take really good care of yourself each and every day and let the feelings happen. Sounds like you took very good care of your Mom and that is all any of us can do. Wish I had an answer for the feelings of guilt...coulda.. woulda..shoulda..only causes us more pain and changes nothing. Finding a grief support group is a great idea and finding something to do for others is sometimes the best thing we can do for ourselves. God bless!