I'm not sure I'm in the right place. I'm no longer a caregiver. I took care of my parents then my in-laws. Then just the 2 who didn't talk or write. My Mom & my husband's Dad. Then my husband. And last my cousin.I'm now seeking help for myself. I'm not used to asking for help. Nor do I really know what I need. You see my Mom had dementia & now I have it. It's very frustrating sometimes I can talk as clear as a bell & now I'm noticing I'm becoming almost incoherent as I speak. I forget what I'm trying to say. It comes out all mombo jumbo. Making no sense of it. Mom didn't speak so I never knew what she wanted. I can,so I'm trying to explain how it feels to have this disease. It's getting harder & harder to explain. FRUSTRATING IS THE BEST WORD!! The problem is I have no one to tell it too. Yes I have kids. 2 1 in state & 1 out of state. My son is here. And he semi tries to help. Maybe run to the store for me.In & out again. I think he's afraid of what I might say? Not here long enough to find out.I want to sleep alot. Sometimes I can't keep my eyes open. EX, wake up 7am looking for a nap by 10am. It used to be in 6 hrs 7am 1,2pm.
I'm sure your son would rather avoid seeing you like this, but at least he is available to help out a little.
There is a man who has posted on this forum, I can't remember his name, who has been sharing his experiences with onset of dementia.
I would advise you, while you can, to make plans for your care, starting with a visit to a neurologist for a proper diagnosis, if you haven't already.
Perhaps you have a condition which can be treated. If not, then you could gain an understanding of what to expect. And don't count on your children to be the ones to take care of you. If you continue to deteriorate, you could find yourself not safe living at home on your own.
Talk with your kids, make a plan together. Complete POA documents, a living will, and choose someone to help you with paying bills if you can no longer manage that on your own.
And, by all means, Go ahead and get some rest! It doesn't matter how often you nap! I am 63, don't have a medical condition (that I know of), and have been caring for my husband for 10 years. I also get very sleepy around late morning, can't keep my eyes open, and have to take a short nap. Sometimes again in the afternoon! It is just physically and mentally exhausting, as you know, caring for someone who needs you 24/7.
Please, continue to share your experience, your concerns, and questions here. We are interested in how you are doing.
You must work fast now to get things in place and to get safe placement plans to the best of your ability.
You are at present very well "spoken" in terms of being able to write. Start at once with your son and your medical team and take son with you to all appointments regarding diagnosis and prognosis.
I am so very sorry. That is something that in your case seems to inadequate, as always it does. But you are ahead of the game in knowing this is coming, as was my own brother who, after a car accident was "incidentally" diagnosed with Probable Early Lewy's Dementia by Symptoms. He and I worked hard and fast to get his home sold, get him in ALF. get me on as his POA and Trustee. Once he was freed of worrying about any bills and etc. his condition actually only IMPROVED until a year later when he died at 85 of another condition. I was told by his wonderful facility that they often saw that happen when someone was safe, not worried, and was having things handled.
If son feels incapable of setting up and handling this then there are Fiduciaries who can be hired. Once setup is over it is an hourly fee monthly to handle your affairs.
I am wishing you the best.