I am a survivor of child sexual and physical abuse and am now a 24/7 caregiver for my husband. He is verging on physical violence if I try to prevent him from doing certain behaviors that are dangerous to himself or our home. Though he can barely walk or get up from the sofa, he becomes very strong in these moments, such as heading outside, (front door) in his underwear with no shoes. We have absolutely no money for assisted living and though he served in the army, he does not qualify for VA benefits due to lack of service during any time of combat. A counselor has asked Adult Protective Services to contact me and it helped to talk with them, and I have a sort of plan in place with packed bags. I have warned his children that if he hits me -again - I am gone. He took good care of me when I had hip surgeries and this dementia has indeed wrecked havoc on his mental and physical capabilities, but when he gets angry I go into a panic mode. Of course this is not at all the man I married, but I cannot sleep and my days and nights are filled with fear and sadness. His children simply cannot imagine or believe that their dad would hurt me and keep reminding me that his illness is at fault and not him. I do, honestly, try to put myself in his place, but he seems to have no concept of what is happening to him.
If ‘No’, just leave.
If ‘Yes’ and unable to abandon him, it’s not going to be easy. If you plan to stick around, you’ll be in for a wild and spooky ride. However, there are things you could do: wait out the aggressive phase of the disease. Try avoiding any kind of arguments, confrontations or conflicts that would set him off. Remove all clutter. Keep only basic items to lessen his confusion. Let rooms be well-lit, but not too bright (Sycees plugin LED with dusk to dawn sensor; $12). There’re glow tapes (Glow in the dark green luminous tape sticker 20 ft. DVN products; $10) that you stick on doors or make symbols to indicate the path to a restroom, especially during night. Get a doctor to prescribe him sleep medications and/ or to calm him down. Costco Tart cherries and Melatonin also do the trick. Sometimes, he may have hurt himself or suffering from UTI and unable to recognize and communicate it. That might lead to violent mood swings and/ or adamant behavior. Watch his behavior and body closely. Sleep in a different room. Set up a baby monitor (Lifecolor wireless video baby monitor; $57) in his room. There’s also a wifi door chime (Suriora wireless alarm door bell; $20) available on Amazon that sends a chime to your room, whenever it detects motion. He won’t know it. You can install it on the ceiling, preferably on the side of the bed he gets up. It helps you to watch his activities without actually being in the room. Set up a panic room, where you can take refuge, preferably the one where you sleep and one where he can’t enter. Leave a line of communication permanently in that room. Remove or lock away all the fire arms and tell him that the key can’t be found, if he asks. Lock the kitchen draws that holds knives or sharps and put a lock on the front door. Keep important documents in a locked cabinet. That’ll prevent him from fiddling around or wandering off. Feign ignorance, if questioned. Ask/ beg one of your adult children to live with you for time being or on rotational basis to help you out. Tell him that they’re visiting. Meanwhile, start your search for an affordable place for him to stay, as the dementia progresses. Have you thought about your finances? If not, it’s better to start planning. Get legal help. Good luck!
and served 120 days outside of training or 6 months he can get V.A. care. He may have a bad discharge . Contact an American Legion case worker. He may can get a bad discharge up graded. If he was drafted and served his time in the Army he is a veteran.
I do not know how old he is but it sounds like he will have a DD-214. Check with the V.A. but I recommend the American. My father was the same way,he was dangerous to my mother and to anyone with a 4 foot piece of iron pipe he took out of the closet to hang cloths on. I will help you any way I can but call those people. He did not have to serve in war time if indeed he did serve.
At first he wouldn't go to a doctor. I made him an appointment with his medical doctor for a check up. Meanwhile, I told the doctor what was going on before the office visit and he started him on Lexapro. I continued to keep the doctor informed of his behavior and it took awhile to get his meds adjusted but he does pretty good now as far as any words or violence goes. His mind is getting worse and he does lots of crazy things as the result of having Alzheimer's. These meds unfortunately do not stop the progression but allow him to be in the home longer.
If he isn't on meds, you have to get him to a doctor and get him calmed down before he hurts you or you get sick yourself.
He placed her in an Assisted Living facility. The facility staff were fooled by her initial calm demeaner, yet they caught on within an hour, once they saw her pacing the floor (she'd do it 22hours/day!) and stirring her ice cream with one of their staplers. By the time she tried to climb inside their TV, they requested that she be moved to their lock-down memory care unit. And within 2 hours of us leaving the facility on day one, they were on the phone, asking us if they could take her to a hospital psych ward, as she was severly violent! Not only do I believe your loved one is violent, I know he could do some major damage to you, to others, and to himself.
This will not end well, if you do not protect yourslf. It doesn't matter WHY he is violent. The issue is VIOLENCE. Do not make excuses for it. IT can kill you.
Call someone immediately, and book him into a nursing care facility. Love yourself enough to make the call, and save yourself.
For more general, non-emergency advice about help for older people you would normally contact your Area Agency on Aging (sometimes this service goes by a subtly different name, but you can easily look up "social services for adults in Anytown" and find who to contact that way).
I'd contact one of the disabled veterans organizations like the Disabled American Veterans (DAV) and see if they can do anything about helping getting him something under the VA. They were of immense help to me when I was getting out of the Navy with medical issues and the Navy was listing me as physically fit for discharge which I was fighting. They didn't bother with the Navy and went straight to the VA. I was all set up with the VA before I got out of the Navy. And I never did see any combat.
The next episode...when he heads out the door, call an ambulance. They will take him to the hospital. Once he's there, tell the Social Worker, he is homeless and you are scared of him. When you meet with the doctors, tell them he has dementia and that you're scared--he doesn't know what he's doing. He may require a behavior medicine. We used Depokote 250mg 3x/day at first, a mood stabilizer. Not too drugged out, mind you. Doctors tend to over-medicate...
Stand firm with the Social Worker, ask her to help you with Medicaid and get him placed somewhere (my experience is that they tried to push me into taking back home my relative until a place was found and I said NO, it was not safe for us. And, how was I to look for a place if there's no one there to watch my loved one?)
The children require to face reality--that you can no longer live with him. When that episode happens and he's placed elsewhere, have a talk with them if they cannot be involved in the process. Ask them to join this forum...
Once my relative was stable on drugs (and not drugged out) there was talk of returning to the home, yet it was decided that the trust was broken, and there was no way of return from that, it was too scary for all involved. I agreed. Plus, dementia doesn't get better, it's a debilitating disease. It was just time for a change, and how sad it was....yet it got better later. Our loved one settled, we even had some enjoyment return...visiting became regular and it was ok...
So stay strong, you're going to get through this...We support you and are rooting for ya!!
A call to 911 when he becomes violent or runs out the door might be the "wake up call" his kids need to validate what you are telling them.
No child wants to believe their parent could do something like that.
(This type of violence was happening to a friend of mine, her kids did not believe it until he became violent when one of them was visiting.)
You should talk to an Elder care lawyer and determine the best course for you. Application for Medicaid might be the best bet. But you also need to protect any assets you may have had prior to the marriage. (sounds selfish but it's reality)
Just remember YOU are the only one that can protect YOU and that is your priority.
Please, darlin', take care of yourself--the children have no clue because they're not living your life mostly because they wouldn't want to! Hard as that sounds (I'm sorry) people especially family put they're heads in the sand and pop back up when "It's over" or you're seriously hurt.
Let him go out, call 911 and apply for Medicaid.
Take care!! Hugs
Go back to APS and ask them also to come up with a plan to ensure your husband's safety. It isn't that I don't completely agree that you should be prepared to walk - too right, so you should! - but it is also their responsibility to ensure that no harm comes to him as a result of his disease. And, importantly, you are more likely to remove yourself if you can be confident that he'll receive the help he needs.
I'm surprised at the VA's response, I must say. I know the various branches have had their difficulties recently, maybe they're tightening their belts in every way they can, but all the same I'd have expected better support and advice from them than that.
Those things may be true some of the time. But having TOO MUCH empathy for someone who is abusive is part of the reason so many people stay with Loved Ones who abuse them. It doesn't really matter WHY they're doing it. What matters is that they're DOING it.
One positive thing that comes out of experiencing what you did when you were younger, is that it's kicked your instincts into gear faster than someone who's never been through something similar. Your instinct is to get away from this behavior, now, because you know what's happening, you know how bad it can get, and you know you don't want to be abused again. That is a good, healthy, survivor response. Congratulate yourself for it! Your experiences made you strong!
I know it's hard, especially when this isn't the person you used to know. Yes, it's heartbreaking and awful and not what anyone expected. But you don't have to be a victim of it for any reason. Not being able to be around him doesn't mean you or your kids have to stop loving him. And I hope your kids will come to understand that abuse is NEVER okay, whatever is causing the abusive behavior. But even if they don't, please don't let them guilt you into putting up with it. It's wrong for them to ask such a thing of you in the first place.
I really urge you to call your local women's shelter. You don't have to be ready to leave. You can just talk to someone. I really do think you should talk to someone. The staff there can tell you what your options are and help you with your plan.
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OF COURSE it is the disease that is causing this behavior. This is not the man you married. All the more reason you must protect yourself from this disease.
Even if you did not have abuse in your background, this behavior and the fear and panic it invokes in you is not acceptable. If he heads outside, let him go. Call 911 after he is out the door. You must do this as his advocate, and to protect yourself.
I understand that his children can't/won't believe he could hurt you. Many people on this board believe it because we've seen what dementia can do to our loved ones. We believe it, and APS believes it. You are definitely at risk of abuse from this man you love. Do everything you have to to protect yourself. Of course it is the illness and not the man you married. But that won't make your leg any less broken or your concussion any more benign if the disease attacks you.
His adult children will not be able to manage him any more effectively than you can. They would be at risk of abuse, too. Don't turn his care over to them if you need to get out of the situation. Involve professionals.
Have you explored Medicaid as a way to pay for the care he needs?
Do not block his exit.
Call 911 for a vulnerable adult once he has gone. The part about in his underwear will speak for itself. You may be given the option to have him placed if you cannot safely have him back home.
Keep the communications line open with APS.
Try a geriatric psychiatrist for better behavioral meds.